Remember the photo below? This one is taken after I cut my hair. The bottom one is before I cut. Got difference one okay. Haha.

I guess today will be a sad day for everyone me.

I'd gotten back my results. I'd managed to mantain my position. Then why am I still not satisfied?

Results are as followed :
English - B4
High Chinese - B4
A Maths - A1
E Maths - A1
Physics - B4
Chem, Bio - A1
Hist, SS - B3
Poa - A1
Class Position - 3rd (^^)

One day, when I'm gone from this world. Who will be the ones who will grieve and moan and wished they had treated my better? Who will be the ones cheering and clapping for my absence in this world? Who will be the ones who will miss my presence? Who will be the ones who will forget me in one or two years? Who will wished they had died with me? Who will be the ones who will remember the smile I hung on my face? Who will be the ones who will remember the bad deeds I did? & Who will be the ones, who truly appreciate me for who I am?

Bad day in the morning. I totally forgotten about the cambodia meeting. And I'd to rushed like hell to school. Luckily the teacher in charge didn't scold. Phew. Today's my mother's birthday. Happy birthday ma ma. ^^ I love you.

I'm never loved.

Free day @ East Coast today. I got a little sun burnt. Skin's red! HAHA. And I fell while rollerblading and I've a big scratch on my leg as big as my hand. I didn't know it was that big until I was bathing. Very pain!

Sjab test today. Hate the seniors. They didn't even inform us that we don't need to bun our hair. Make me until so ugly. Irritating. On the brighter side, boyf came to find me, and we ate lunch together before walking around in west mall till around 3pm before we proceeded home. Love him to the max. Sighs. My father maybe want to bring us go watch iron man. But I don't want! I want to watch my channel U show. :(

Finally collected all my papers back.

Physics: 56.5/100 (Very disappointing.)
POA: 90/100 ( ^^ )
Social studies: 30/50 (I don't know shld I be happy or not.)
History: 33/50 (Same as ss.)
E maths P1: 66/80 (I'm so not satisfied. I targeted higher.)
E maths P2: 38/50 (Disappointing although deserved.)

Sighs.

I miss him.

Results update. :(

English: 63/100 (added overall)
Chinese: 61/100 (I anyhow approximately calculate one)
Chem: 72/100
Bio: 56.5/60
A maths: 70/100

Wasn't really happy. Although I knew I deserved this marks. Why can't just people be contented with their MARKS!!! :(

Best, in your darkest hour, in your deepest despair, I would light up the path for you and hopefully guide you along.

Sighs. Results are out tomorrow. I wonder how well I'll fare. I know very well I won't do well for Physics and A maths. I want to face the fact. But I cannot. I cannot believe all I did was panicked during the exams and that's it. Off my marks went. Wow. I cannot bring myself to smile now. But I enjoyed my day with boyf today, he's really sweeeeet. Me love him but I seriously don't know why he keep dnt want to reply my messages. I'm very worried. I had cambodia meeting too. Haha. Besty, I hoped you cheer up a little today. Although I know I did minimum help only. I love you.

I really want to smile happily everyday. & I'd tried. I hope people can tell, I tried. But I don't know how to, with my father in and out of risks every single day. My mother getting so stressed up over work and her husbang. My boyf gets scolded by his parents becos of me. My boyf isn't even replying my messages. & my best friend is in such distress. & me, worrying about my MYE results. I'm useless. I wished I could do something to help. Just the slightest thing. To steal a slight smile from them. Just that little smile. I guess, it'll be enough to make my day. But no. I couldn't do. Anything. But I'll silently be there. For them all. I love you all.

& Best, I hope you wouldn't hide your problems within you. I hope you'll tell me. Tell me so much that I can help you. I don't want you to fall apart. I want you like how you used to be. I don't want you to keep things from me just because you want me to know you're okay. I know you're not. And it worries me even more. I wished I could do more to help you.

Exams are officially over. Mid year exams I mean. So, I seriously don't know whether to be sad or happy. Because, I know very well, I won't do well. Whatever it is, it's over. No use crying over a spilt milk. So, what are my holiday plans? GCE O'levels chinese paper. -.- I hate you.

MY PHONE RAN OUT OF BATT. Called boyf but he didn't answer... Miss him alot. :( So, I'm going to sleep now. SICK :( Bye.

And Bestyy. ^^ I'm so going to squeeze your troubles out of you till you're dry one of this day!